ahhhh
I have just spent two days in heaven. Laying in bed with someone gorgeous eating crap food and watching even crapper TV. It’s a shame it has all come to an end, but I will always have the memories. I feel stupidly lucky right now.
Hell
I’ve been through hell and back and I am finally feeling better about everything. My mentality is, if you don’t want me someone twenty times better will… I hope. Now I think I’m going to move on, I need someone fun, easy going and that will be happy to spend time with me. I want to be in control this time. I don’t want someone that controls me, someone that makes me feel bad for things that I shouldn’t feel bad for.
To be honest, I really don’t want to move on but its for the best….
I am such a big kid.
This is the night I lost her.
”
Fags, beer and herbal highs, just an aid to enjoy my life
Flamboyant Bella
Every day
Every day really is a battle. One day I feel better the next I don’t and the worse thing is, you don’t seem to care. One year and six months - means nothing to you. I’ve never felt the urge to kick and kiss someone so much like I do for you. This is a bit to hard for me to handle.
I just need to remember this.
note to self: smile more in photos.
- My Mberrrrr, Maidstone.
